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“Paths are so much clearer when people stop looking at what everyone else is doing and instead concentrate on themselves,”

CECELIA AHERN ‘The gift’

 

Something about this line really struck me when I read it; I actually paused from reading to think about it for a while. Which proves that it’s a good line, it takes a brilliant writer to make you stop and think with a single line. It’s true as well; people spend far too much time paying attention to every detail of other people’s lives, giving advice, telling them how to live that they can’t see that they need to spend some attention on their own lives. That’s not to say that you should be completely self centred and not show some interest in the lives of your friends, but there is showing an interest and sticking your nose in. That’s all for today I think, just wanted to share the quote Lucy xx

Oh Happy Days!

I survived work, Joshua survived and so did Ant! So all is good. I don’t even think Joshua missed me – that’s just charming isn’t it?! Was nice chatting with everyone again and my worries about forgetting everything were dashed, I actually remembered more than I thought. Although I will so be asking a million questions when I go back properly.

Does anyone else love the feeling you get when you can be completely and utterly happy for someone else?  I’ve been crossing my fingers and wishing on eye lashes for the past two months that my friend would get the news she deserved and on Tuesday she had her twelve week scan and saw her babies heartbeat.  I know exactly how she was feeling and when I received the message to say everything was okay I had the biggest smile on my face for the rest of the day. Honestly I am overjoyed for her. It’s such an exciting time, and I love that I can share it with her.

I find too often these days that people can’t be genuinely happy for someone else, not unless they are benefiting from it in some way and I hate this. Why does the world have to work like this?

My new year; new me is going fairly well...caved and had a small piece of chocolate today. Other than that though we’ve been eating nice healthy food and I’m enjoying it. Making me feel less tired and happier in myself. I know it will be a while before I notice the affects but I’m still motivated – usually I get s far as day 2! Had my hair cut yesterday as another step – I have a little side fringe now and I really like it. Have a look for yourself and let me know what you think!



Next weekend Ant is going to take me out for a treat.... the healthy eating will go out of the window that night. We’ve only had one night out alone in the past seven months so we both feel that it is due. I’ve been dropping hints for a few weeks and last night he turned to Joshua and said ‘Joshua I think Mummy is trying to tell me something, new clothes, new makeup new hair’ Then he told me he would take me out, so to arrange a baby sitter.

Will be lovely to get a night out alone as a couple but will also be strange as it’s only the second time Joshua will have been with someone other than the two of us. I know he will be fine, he’ll most likely be in bed before we go and my neice is more than capable of taking care of it. Just strange though!

Anyway I think that’s enough randomness for today!
Thanks to everyone who has left comments I really appreciate and love reading them

Lucy xx

That Sunday Feeling

I officially hate it! You know that feeling you get that the weekend is ending too quickly and work is looming. That’s how I feel right now. Okay I know I haven’t been at work since the middle of May last year but it still feels like only two minutes ago I was there. Honestly the last 7 months have gone to fast and it feels way too soon to be leaving my little Prince for work. I’m only going in for 4 hours and I am only doing two days this week but it won’t be long and I will be back doing 5 day weeks again. I actually want to cry, I don’t want any other job than being a Mummy. Being a Mum is my favourite thing to do and I feel guilty that I have to go back to work and devote my time to stupid customers and their laptops. How will I be motivated to do my work when I don’t care about it, when all I want to do is go home and be with my baby? My biggest fear is missing his milestones. Yes it will be nice that Daddy is there and gets to experience them and not some stranger but I honestly think I will feel jealous. What if he says his first real word (not the Muma muma muma mum mum whining he does now) but something where he knows the meaning. Or what if he crawls and then later walks when I am at work. It will make being away from him even worse. I want to be there for them all! Is that selfish?

 His Daddy goes out to work every day ...well night actually so he doesn’t miss much time with Joshua. An hour or so in the morning while he sleeps in, then he misses an hour before bed. Nothing really...I’m going to be missing 4 and half hours every afternoon. I know I have to go back, bills needs to be paid, milk and nappies bought and I should just try and be positive about it. Right now though I can’t.

Maybe once I’ve done my first day tomorrow I will feel better. Even one keeps telling me the adult company will do me good, what do they think I do lock myself in the house all day with only Joshua. We go shopping, we meet friends for lunch, we visit family we go and play with other Mum’s and babies. I see lots of adults, I just see them with my son with me and that’s the way I want it to be. We’re going to have to stop going to Mother and Baby group to. We did that Tuesday afternoons, think there are only 4 more days we can go and that’s it finished. Joshua loves going to, interacting with the other babies and flirting with the mums.

Anyway I’m going to leave it at that before I depress myself anymore and quite possible you to.
Happier blog next time
Lucy

New me

So it’s a new year and I have decided that I’m sick of looking the way I do, so I’m going to make an effort to do something about it and actually start to like the way I look again. People are always saying it’s okay you’ve just had a baby – but that was 6 months ago now. So it’s time to start losing that baby weight. I’ve set myself a target and I really, really want to achieve it. Hope you will all help to keep me motivated!

I started today with a food shop, my fridge has never looked so healthy. I’ve got a plan of meals we will eat every day and some of it sounds so yummy. I’m actually excited about eating it. Makes a change usually they tell you to live on cardboard and rabbit food.  Dusting the Wii fit off was another one of my missions – I pulled it out this morning and managed 40 minutes before Joshua demanded me. The last five minutes I actually did while carrying him.

I’ve found a new love to ... body shop. Someone is doing a wonderful job at converting me. Yes you know who you are! I’ve invested in some of there eye liner and lengthening mascara. I just tried it out and I have to say it’s amazing. It really does lengthen your lashes.  This is what the website says about it :  A long lasting conditioning formula with an innovative curving brush to separate, define and seriously stretch every single lash.

I love how helpful and friendly they are in the stores too... they don’t pester you when you go in like some shops, but they are on hand to help you out. I saw they do a free make up consultation and I was very tempted to sign up. Learn a bit more about what makeup I should use and how to apply it. I don’t wear very much but it really does make me feel better when I have a bit on. Even if that is just mascara and eye liner.  I guess learning and wearing more makeup could be part of the new me to. Looking good and feeling good has got to be the way to go!

Anyway I got a nice surprise when Ant came home from work. So I’m going to leave it at that for today and go watch some tele with him. Will blog again soon

Lucy

Winter Wonderland

Apparently this cold freeze is meant to last for another 3 weeks. It seems to have been going on forever already, although I’ve been lucky here we’ve hardly had any snow at all. Mr Frosty just visits every day, leaving everything white and pretty.  I guess this is what winter is supposed to be like, but I am looking forward to a bit of warm weather now. Although living in England wishing for warm weather is like wishing to marry Shane Filan. Never going to happen.

One thing I love about winter though is that it’s a brilliant excuse to drink hot chocolate. Hot chocolate with baileys is my favourite. What can I say I like my hot chocolate like I like me men, hot, smooth, creamy and steamy!!

How amazing does that look? Makes me want to go make one, shame I don't have any cream to add to it!



And I will leave you with that, I hope I didn't make your mouth water to much!

New Year

New Year...

New layout, new name and new update. Yes I know it has been ages, but I thought it was about time I wrote something new.  A friend started a new blog and it inspired me to get mine back up and running again. Hopefully with a lot happier stuff than I have written previously.

Sweet, frothy and fluffy bubbles that smell like custard creams. What a delight it is to have a bath in the equivalent of a cup of vanilla flavoured, frothy, hot chocolate topped with marshmallows.Doesn’t that sound absolutely divine? I HAVE to try it! Delightful smells and feelings are the reason why I am totally in love with lush bath products. I have some in my bathroom waiting to be used thanks to the wonderful people who gave me some lush products for Christmas. Maybe a hot bath with a bath bomb will help me get rid of this cold... New Year and a cold. Not exactly the perfect way to start it but never the less I’m optimistic about the year ahead. You have to be really don’t you? No point looking at the future through a pessimistic eye – what’s that going to achieve other than depressing you? And who wants to be depressed? Not me that’s for sure, I’ve got too much to look forward to.

I can feel 2010 is going to be a good year! Although a part of me wonders if I can ever top the feeling of seeing my son for the first time.

Every little thing you do, baby I’m amazed by you.

Right that will do for today, I’ll get my thinking cap on and come back with a longer and better update very soon!

Motherhood

After months of waiting, waiting to get pregnant, waiting for scans, waiting to giving birth - basically one big waiting game that seemed to take a lifetime. Time seemed to slow down the last few weeks of my pregnancy, there seemed to be extra hours in the day, extra days in the week… I was wishing time by. Now it’s all changed, time has sped up - there are not enough hours in the day, my boy is growing; changing and it’s all happening so quickly. Now I want time to slow down…I want Joshua to stay tiny for longer! Guess we are never happy!

Motherhood… people ask is it what you expected? I don’t know, I never really had any expectations. Is it harder than I thought? Some days, the lack of sleep is hard, but it’s worth it. Seeing Joshua happy and content, watching him grow and change and explore things. I’d not swap any of it for a full nights sleep… don’t get my wrong a full nights sleep would be nice, but I’ll get it again one day. The hardest thing I have found is knowing my little man is in pain and I can’t make it go away. Makes me sad, watching him sleeping and hearing him moan or cry in his sleep - I just want to hug him and make it all better. Hoping the colic goes soon - poor little mite.

There is one question I have been asked a million times, mostly by random strangers. ‘Is he good?’ Of course he is, new born babies don’t have the ability to be naughty. When they ask they are usually wanting to know if he is sleeping at night. No he doesn’t sleep through, but then I never expected him to - how many new babies do? But just because he doesn’t sleep all night doesn’t mean he is a bad baby… is that what they imply? Perhaps not, but sometimes I just want to ask them that? LOL

He truly fascinates me, I find myself spending to much time holding him and gazing at him. Watching him while he’s awake, watching him while he’s sleeping - stretching, curling up, makes cute faces, and cooing noises. Some days I get nothing done, I sit on the sofa with my new best friend - day time t.v and just hold and cuddle him. When he feeds, and then falls asleep he just looks to content and it makes me heart melt.

being a Mum, and loving seeing Ant being a Dad - he is wonderful. Proper dotes on his little boy! My whole live revolves around my little man, everything I do and say is about him at the moment. I probably bore everyone to death but honestly I am so in love with him, that I can’t stop talking about him.

Got some exciting plans for the rest of the year, going to Wales in 6 weeks with my parents - looking forward to it so much. Nice relaxing break in a gorge cottage. My mum has offered to look after Joshua for an evening to, so me and Ant will get out first night out together. I wonder if I will spend the whole time wondering how my boy is! Hehe Before I go to Wales though Erica is home, and I am soooo excited *bounces* Almost been two years since I have seen her, missed her lots. And Joshua needs to meet his Aunty Erica :D The October Tanja will come and stay, so excited :D Then December Jamie Olivers restaurant with Tanja and Carina. Yay lots of excitement!