Dates & work!

Thought it was time for an update! Saturday was date night ... only the second time myself and Anthony have been out in seven months. My niece came over to babysit, we got Joshua settled in bed and off we went. It felt really good to dress up, straightened my hair, put on a full face of makeup and some new clothes. We started the evening by going to my favourite bar for a cherry beer before going to the restaurant. Ate so much, and drank wine. We chatted and laughed, it was a lovely evening. I didn’t text home to check if Joshua was okay, I was proud of myself. Not that we were out late, we were home by ten thirty and Joshua was up playing with my niece! She did call me to warm me she couldn’t get him back to sleep, but he was happy and that’s all that mattered. I got him back to sleep in the end and then he slept the entire night for the FIRST time. So impressed!! Shame he hasn’t done it since!

As hard as it is leaving my little prince it really did us good to get some quality time alone – it is important.

Been in work again this week, two days done – one to go. It’s getting easier, and I am so impressed that I can remember most things. Feels like I never left. Joshua is so clingy when I get home though, I can do nothing until he is in bed as every time I put him down he cries. Even when his Dad holds him he reaches out for me. He misses his Mummy and that makes me feel rotten for leaving him but does mean I get loads of cuddles when I am home.

Something really annoyed me today though. People telling me how to be a Mummy, I can’t tolerate it. He’s my child, I will do things as I feel appropriate just because they did it different with their child does not mean that is the way it should always be. It doesn’t make me a bad person because I can’t leave me child to cry, I will not stop feeding him during the night because you tell me he doesn’t need feeding at night at his age. If he asks for a feed I will give it him. Honestly everyone else is more bothered about me getting up for night feeds than I am. If I don’t care, if I am happy to do it why does everyone have to tell me what I SHOULD be doing to stop it. Leave him cry... I don’t think so! Crying is his form of communication, it means he wants something if only that is only a cuddle. Everyone parents in a different way and I would never dream of telling another Mum how to do something, I would tell them what I do. Or what I would do in that situation, but never any more than that. What works for one mother and baby is different for another!

Anyway that’s it from me.

xxx