Laughter

…makes the world a happier place’

Well my last entry was a pretty depressing one, and I didn’t mean to make people cry. I was actually surprised at how much better I felt by being able to write my feelings down.

I had my hospital appointment on Thursday, they gave me a scan just to check that everyone was gone. It was and the nurse was really sweet and compassionate. Even though I knew i had miscarried, I had a little cry - but Ant and my sister were there to give me a huge hug. The nurse told me my womb looked fine and I was safe to try again after my first period arrives. So I see it now as time to look forward, to the future and to the children that one day I will have. I’ll never forget my little angel, and I knew she will always be there looking down at me and the children I will have.

‘An understand friend is better than a therapist, and cheaper too!’

I want to take this moment to say thank you to all my friends who have been there to support me. Your kind words and cyber hugs have all been such a help to me, putting a smile back on my face. Gaby you really are one of the sweetest girls I know *hugs* and your support not only through this but through other hard times - I can’t even put into words how much it means to me. We will meet soon
Mandi I know how hard you found it all, being there with me when I first found out. You’ve been great though and I want to say thanks. *huggles*
Tanja your card, and offer to be here if I needed you mean so much to me. *giggles* Writing about naughty Nicky with you has helped take my mind of things to. Roll on October! *hugs*
To everyone else, who sent a card, or warm wishes - there are to many of you to name and I would forgot someone if I tried to list you all I would forget someone. But thank you!

‘Dance like no one is watching, work like you don’t need the money.’

I got a new job *Happy dance* Full time, I will be an Account manager. Sounds much posher than it is. I will work in an insurance company. Pure luck that I got it… it was all basically down to a friend. She passed on my CV, had an interview and got offered the job within three days. I am not sure when I start yet, I will call them Monday and ask them when they want me. My other job… I quit! Well I was all nice and said I was leaving, but then I got hit on. ‘Fuck off, I’m married’ is apparently not enough of a NO! I will not be going back tomorrow, just can’t be doing with the awkwardness of it!

‘Calories don’t count when you are out with friends.’
Thats good because I’m sure there was a lot of calories in the beer I was drinking last night. Mmmmm Cherry beer is amazing Apple was pretty good to, so was banana and passion fruit! Gutted they didn’t have any chocolate though. Mmmm you should all come see me and I will introduce you to it! Not been out with my girls in a while, so it was really good to see them all. Thing the last time all five of us were out together was Xmas! That’s bad isnt it…and now one of the girls will be moving to London to be a Doctor! Scary stuff!

Anyway I think that is about it, and I’m pleased that this post was happier and more positive. My sad moment are getting less and less, even though I still think about what would have been!

Byeeee
Lu xx